I did a meme thingy

[reynardo]

and it said that I was a Dreaming Soul.

But I realised that what I am is:

- Known to many through various fora.

- Close to lots whom I support and care for, mother, listen to, help out.

But my truest, closest friends are those for whom I can be vulnerable, sad, hurt, upset...

I was feeling very down when I left work the other day, and Ren was coming out of the lift and just put his arms around me and held me. This meant a lot.

The wonderful lederhosen is my comfort and my life, and knows exactly how and when to stop me fritzing around and just hold me for a while.

If I'm feeling down, or sick, or crying, I often don't need fancy solutions, or cheering up, or even great amounts of support. I just need to be acknowledged and held. And if I'm asking for that sort of comfort, it leaves me empty and worse if the person I'm asking ignores me or fobs me off. If I say I'm miserable. it's a huge concession to let someone else know I'm not my usual happy self.

But I can't be happy all the time.

Comments

[asheraa.livejournal.com]

Its a commonly held misconception that people are supposed to be happy all the time and that when they do get sad, they want helpfull advice, or to "need be left alone".

More often than not, I find that a simple hug is all I need. Just to know that its ok to be sad especially if life is giving me cause, and to know that Im not resented for feeling that way. The value of having someone who you can hug, talk to or sometimes (gods forbid... apparently its just not politic), just to be with in companiable silence is greatly underestimated.

As someone who is fairly uncomfortable with showing feelings as well, I can sympathise about the evils of being patted on the head and told in a hyper cheerfull voice that everything can't be that bad so cheer up.... or getting the "oh gods, not again" routine.

I wish I knew why it is that society on the whole will put up with the global atrocities that are happening every day, yet can't grasp the fact that there are other emotions than "positive" ones and they are just a nessecary to the human psyche as happy fluffy ones.

So, I shall end my rant and simply say *hugs in abundance* from a fellow hug tart

;-)

[emu-bitter-babe.livejournal.com]

*big cuddles*

All I know is, you're damn good at cheering me up at times and we've never even met. I wish you all the good cuddle karma you deserve.

[djfiggy.livejournal.com]

You're allotted 1 caterpiller hugs today. You may collect it by replying to this message. Or, similarly, by miraculously putting a letter in the mailbox at the exact same time as Dylan puts Sez's card in the box. However you cannot do both and expect to double up on your gift :)

[ambitious-wench.livejournal.com]

I think it's important to remember the difference between "happy" and "content".

But sometimes, we can't even be content with our lives, and those can be transformative times.

I can't hug you physically, but I certainly offer my love and support, dear friend.

Edie

[turnberryknkn.livejournal.com]

Just be you. We'll be here. :-)